Tell Your Homies You Love Them

My cancer treatment steroids give me crazy insomnia so I woke up at 3:30 this morning. Instead of the typical online shopping routine for the sake of my bank account, I channeled a wannabe VSCO girl and created this little collage.

If this year has taught me anything, it’s that life is too dang short.

This crap year feels like a blur. I’ve missed out on so much. With a worldwide pandemic happening, most of us feel that way, but with a suppressed immune system from chemotherapy, I’ve especially had to live in a bubble with little to no exposure to other people. Life is still happening around me. Several of my friends are getting engaged, having babies, and celebrating milestones and I could not be happier for them. I wish I could give hugs, jump for joy and just be around them.

My godfather passed away a couple of weeks ago, as if this year couldn’t get any worse. I know he knows how much I loved and admired the incredible man he was and how lucky I felt to be his goddaughter, but I wish I had told him more. I encourage you to share with your loved ones how you feel before you don’t have the chance to. Life can change in an instant.

I could not have gotten through this year without the support of dear friends from all over the world. Simple texts, funny TikToks, snail mail, sweet DMs, flower deliveries, FaceTimes and phone calls have kept me going.

I thank my lucky stars for all the memories and laughs I’ve shared with so many good friends over the years. I know that I’m going to beat this cancer and can’t even let myself think otherwise but I also know I’ve lived a full life thus far and am blessed to have had such beautiful experiences in just 32 short years. But don’t worry, I plan on filling my life with many many more.

Best friends make good times better and hard times easier.

So friends (you know who you are), aloha nui loa. You are everything to me. Life is about connection and relationships and somehow I hit the jackpot with all of you.

ILYSM

New Year. New Yikes.

I know I’ve been horrible about actually posting… I got hired at a really great company shortly after I decided to launch Trips and Salsa. It’s one of my New Years resolutions to post more frequently.

2019 was an interesting year to say the least. I had many major life changes, my patience was tested, I had to step out of my comfort zone a few times, went to Hawaii a lot, developed meaningful relationships and I’m ending my year on a high note. I am excited to be entering a new decade. 

Here are some of the highlights from 2019:

– Euro Trip with Amelia. What’s better than an epic Europe trip with your bestie?

– My awesome beach mansion with even more awesome roomies. I lucked out big time. I got instant friends whom I actually enjoy being around. We are more than roomies, we’re friends. And that’s rare. One of these days I’m going to write a blog post about funny/horrifying roommate stories.

– Getting to spend so much time with my family. Since I kept taking and quitting jobs this year, I had a lot of spare time to travel to Hawaii. Also my parents are moving to San Diego and I couldn’t be more excited!

– My BFF from childhood got married and I did a lot of wedding crap (and spent all my money lol). But it was so special to be included in her big day and I got to hang out with my childhood friends a lot throughout the year.

– My new job. Finally found the right one. It checks off all the boxes on the list I made at the beginning of the year of what I wanted in my next position. It was a long journey to get here but worth it.

I love making new years resolutions. In the past I’ve been pretty good about following through, probably because they’re never about fitness. One year I wanted to floss. The next year was to drink more water. One year I wrote and mailed out birthday cards to my friends and family. Another, I wanted to get my teeth fixed. But this year I have a million:

– Be more creative. Do more art. Actually blog.

– Save money.

– Waste less. Be more eco conscious.

– Date.

– Be nicer.

– Be more assertive.

– Worry less.

– Adventure as much as possible.

– Lose 500 lbs. (jk. Sort of)

Alright, 2019 was interesting. Bring it on 2020.